The World Change

The world really change dy...looked like I cant fit in it anymore...I'm thinking what are the things I really want : friends , love, God , career, or something else....If I want friends , I hv to change myself, change my attitude, cos today ppl way of talking is different dy, not like last time. If you can speak a lot, u can 'zat' ppl, u able to be a joker, u are cute ...u sure can get a lot of friends, ppl also like to talk to you , even feel relax when talk to u...but if u are those quiet, x funny, bored ,just like me, ppl just feel tat you are so sienz, some ppl even feel stress when talk to u, and dunno what to talk to u, yea....I have experienced this..so I know the feeling....But I'm not intelligent enough, my brain cant move so fast, cant twist so fast to talk what people like..Sometime Im thinking, am I really hv to change in order to hv a lot of friends just like all my friends around me, no matter is school or church...almost every youngster talks this way..but If I talk like tat, sometime feel will hurt ppl. I very proud with my sis, she doesn't care , she just follow her style, she knows what God likes, she just do what she thinks is right...ya. this is thing I want learn from her....


I always wonder what is the way of communication and establish relationship with friends that God loves . I just want to follow what He prefer, cos this wont obey Him...If the way He prefer will cause me have little friends..I also willing to do so.

I should not forget that the purpose I enter this Uni is to study and get good result and good job ..I almost forget this after so involve in saving relationship with friends and  church bro sis...work so hard for so long, it seems no use, cos the way I use is wrong...Is friend really important to me?Many friends good? I think is no..

about Love...it is painful if u like someone secretly, and you feel so nervous to get close with him, even talking to him....Love is blind...I agree that, because u love someone, u can accept all his weakness or characteristic that may not suit u..ya...when u see he get along with other girl /girls so close ,so intimate than u , u will hurt, broken heart, cry...this is unavoidable..but dont let yourself sad for so long...the life still hv to go on,there are many other things waiting us to do...dont just focus on one things until u realise that u hv sacrificed other things.I decide to just put marriage matter into the hand of God...He chooses the best for me, I know that, even I marry or not marry....He knows what suit me, what can help me get rid from sin...He will choose the best to me...I just need to put my faith on Him...

So, now I really hv to focus on my study, spiritual life, family, happiness, my future and other minute  things..The World has changed, but I cannot always change follow it...I must differentiate although I will be called alien....I just dont want to offense God....