Invisible

Is invisible good or bad ? but I will say sometime being invisible is better than visible. BUT, if you are invisible all the time , you will be become sad , even mad cos you will be neglected by others. As everyone need people concern about them and hope he or she is welcomed by everyone so visible in the eyes of your friend is good. No people can be alone .Lonely isn't good.

Since I'm still small ,I am invisible ,till now, till today, till forever I know that.But, I know I always visible in the eye of God and parent, cos They really concern about me. WHat the meaning of invisible I mean here? SOme of you might guess the meaning , some may not. Invisible for me in this context is neglected by others , treated differently by others.When you are concerned by others , you will be the happiest person.

haha...WHAT i want to say already?? I actually write this in a very sad mood .But, this is not the first time I'm sad, I have been sad for million times because of 'Invisible' .I try to find the factors why others(my grp of friends ) feel unease to talk to me frequently .Many of the times, Im the want who take initiative to talk to others , either new people or old people , I always talk to them friendly . sincerely and politely , cos this is manner .Most of the friends talk very nature , confidently with their own style, in a tone that is not soft or talk to to new people with a tone and manner that they already know that new people long long time ago or being cool to the new people.BUT very funny, at last , I'm not a close friend for them. Even the people who act cool to new people become close friend to new people. Mayb this is the newest style to social .I understand you might not understand what I talking about as my structure of English is still not that good, but nvm, at least I able release my stress.

Other than that, some of the grp of friends that I know for at least one year , we always hang out together but they still feel not close to me, although I always chat with them. I found that they like to talk to people who handsome, beautiful, and can speak loudly ,talkative ,high self-esteem , can tell joke and can quarrel with them playfully .These kind of people have a lot friends. They even do not need to speak, people will come to talk to them. This never happen to me in my life as I not belong to this kind of people in nature, I do not have these ability....cos I'm very boring, the topic I talk to people always seems like very boring , I low self confident , some more my voice small, no matter how I speak all my might still very unattractive to people.I admit I'm not beautiful as well , so all these happen to me. I just have to hide myself crying, I cannot let others know my sad feeling in front of them, later will ruin the happy environment they are having.

I try all my best to change myself many times, I try my best to talk loud , and find interesting topic to talk to others, all these seems not work . I want to give up for many times , but I know I cant , impossible I hv to become loner and a single island.I really need friend. I just hope others can treat me like how they treat people who has above quality .I hope they can talk joke to me, talk playfully to me, treat me nature and like close friend.I need your concern.

Am I really looked scary and serious to you , my friend? If it is, you get me wrong, I am not this kind of people. I'm really will be a good friend to you, as I will always concern about you and help you. I love to keep quiet to listen what you all discuss and chat , I admit I m not a talkative people but im not a very quiet and cool person. I just want to be visible in your eyes although i unable be a playful, talkative, beautiful and ,joker friend for you.